Retrogrades, Realisations, Regulation and Reflections on My First Spinal Energetics Experience

It’s Wednesday.

It’s not just any Wednesday.

It’s one of those days where the air feels thick with feeling.
Where everything you thought you had neatly tucked away—emotionally, energetically, even physically—decides to come forward, sit beside you, and gently ask: “Are you finally ready to feel this?”

And I did feel it all.

I felt every single one of my cells whispering:
“Something shifted.”

This afternoon, I had my very first Spinal Energetics session facilitated by Sharnie, the knowledgeable and safe space behind Consicious Flow Counselling—and truly holy wow. There’s no other way to begin this blog than with those words.

My whole being feels like it has been cracked open and pieced back together all at the same time.

I cried.
I shook.
I surrendered.
I softened.

There was no hiding from myself.
No bypassing. No pretending I was fine.
Because the truth is—I haven’t been okay or even fine.

For the last few weeks, I’ve been feeling flat, exhausted and foggy. Like I’ve been carrying a heavy weight I was unable to name that has been lodged not only in my body but in my heart and spirit, too.

As someone who lives intentionally, moves intuitively and pours love into others daily… it felt frustrating to not feel that same fire burning within me.

But today—something gave way.

It began with the invitation to feel. To open. To release.

For those of you who have read The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk, you will understand exactly what I mean when I say this: The body really does keep the score.

The unprocessed grief.

The words we never spoke.

The tension we hold so tightly in our jaws, necks, hips.

The uncried tears that settle into our tissues, facia and muscles.

The fear we swallowed instead of felt.

The burnout we ignored because we were “fine.”

My body has been speaking to me for weeks now—maybe months but today, through the Spinal Energetics process, I finally listened.

And she (my brilliant beautiful body) had a lot to say.

You might be wondering, what on earth is Spinal Energetics?

So… let’s begin there.

Spinal Energetics is a holistic healing modality that works with the physical, emotional, energetic and spiritual systems of the body. Through a combination of breath, intuitive guidance and gentle touch (or sometimes no touch at all)—the practitioner supports the natural ability of the body to move, release, recalibrate and restore balance. By attuning to the innate wisdom of the body—your energy field, spine, and breath—Spinal Energetics helps to unwind stored trauma, release tension, and integrate suppressed emotions, allowing for deep healing and nervous system regulation.

It’s not something you can fully explain.
It’s something you feel. Deeply. Viscerally. Powerfully.

Today, I felt it in every inch of me.

It doesn’t force change—it invites it.

It doesn’t control—it listens.

It doesn’t “fix” you—it helps you remember that you were never broken.

During the session, I felt involuntary movements, emotional waves and energetic shifts coursing through my spine and out through my breath, hands and heart.
I cried. I sighed. I trembled. I released.

And after?

I felt lighter, taller, clearer, softer.

It’s hard to explain with words but my body knew exactly what it was doing. My energy field was finally able to let go of what my mind had been trying so hard to figure out.

What’s Going On in the Cosmos?

Why Now? Why This Week?

The cosmos are absolutely wild right now.

We are standing in the eye of an astrological hurricane—a celestial cocktail shaking the deepest parts of our psyche.

If you’ve been feeling emotionally raw, mentally foggy, physically disconnected or spiritually disoriented—it’s not just you.

It’s not a coincidence.

The universe is moving through big shifts, and we’re feeling every ripple in our nervous systems, hearts, bodies and bones.

Venus Retrograde: Old relationship patterns, worthiness wounds, and questions around what we truly value are rising to the surface. Themes of love, beauty, and how we relate to ourselves and others are being stirred—especially the old stories of “not enoughness.”

How to support yourself…
Be gentle with your heart. Reflect—rather than react.
Revisit old love wounds without reattaching to the pain.
Reconnect with yourself as your truest source of love.
Let softness be your superpower.

Mercury Retrograde: The messenger planet is in reverse, inviting us to review, reflect and reframe. Communication may feel sticky, old thoughts or fears may loop back, and yes—there are the classic tech glitches and confusion.

This Retrograde is much more than glitches and confusion. It’s an invitation to slow down and really listen to what your soul is trying to say.

How to support yourself…
Double-check your messages.
Journal it out.
Revisit anything unresolved.
Use miscommunications as mirrors, not judgments.
Take space before replying.

Lunar Eclipse Energy: Eclipses = Endings and Beginnings.
They are portals—cracking open the parts of us ready to evolve, but not without asking us to let go first. The subconscious is wide open, emotions may feel extra charged, and old patterns can resurface.It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to retreat. You are not unravelling—you are transforming.

How to support yourself…
Rest more than usual.
Use water (baths, tea, tears)—as healing medicine.
Cleanse your space and your spirit.
Don’t rush clarity. It will come after the release.

Neptune Entering Aries: This rare planetary transit brings dreamy Neptune—planet of intuition, imagination and spirit—into bold, action-driven Aries. It’s big.
You may feel torn between floating in your dreams and feeling the urge to fight or flee. It can feel disorienting, like your inner world is being asked to act on intuition before you are ready.

How to support yourself…
Stay rooted in your body. Ground your vision before you leap.
Balance the spiritual with the physical using embodiment tools.
Ground your intuitive downloads with aligned action—but only when it feels true.
Trust your inner compass more than the outer noise.

As a Pisces sun, I feel everything including the collective waves of change.

As a Cancer moon, I feel deeply as I long for safe, soft spaces to process all emotion.

As an Aquarius rising, I crave perspective, insight, and radical self-understanding.

This week, I was unable to escape what was bubbling under the surface.

Lately, I’ve just been feeling… flat. Foggy. Faint-hearted.
Like my inner flame was flickering.
Like I was holding my breath without even realising it.
Like I was running on empty but still trying to pour from my cup.

Thoughts like:
“I’m not doing enough.”
“Why can’t I get my energy back?”
“Maybe I’m just not cut out for all I’m holding.”
“Why don’t I feel more grounded by now?”

I know these thoughts aren’t the truth of who I am.
They are the voices of tiredness, transition and tender transformation.

If you have been feeling it too—like you are in a liminal space between who you were and who you are becoming and blooming beautifully into—you are not alone.

This is the messy, magical middle and we are walking it together.

Spinal Energetics helped me come home to my breath today.
It moved emotion, softened my nervous system and released trapped stories.

It brought me back—
To my spine.
To my inner knowing.
To the parts of me I had gently set aside.

These are the words I have been whispering to myself lately—and perhaps, they are meant for you too.

You are allowed to feel off. That doesn’t mean you’re broken.

Flatness is not failure. It’s your body asking for pause.

Astrological awareness is a mirror, not a rulebook

You don’t have to explain your exhaustion to anyone—not even yourself.

Emotions are messengers. They are not who you are.

Healing doesn’t always look like bliss.

Sometimes it looks and feels like unraveling.

This weekend, I’ll be attending the Intell Workshop with emotional intelligence coach and educator Nerida Bint—a soul-stirring experience I know will deepen the connection and reverence I hold for my emotional home, while inviting me to dive even deeper into the world of emotional and somatic intelligence. Trust me, a whole blog will be devoted to this one, because I can already feel it’s going to illuminate and reignite a part of myself long tucked away. If you feel called, you can find out more about her upcoming Intell Workshop and join this transformative experience.

Here are some whispers for the soul—a few wild Wednesday reflection prompts, gently offered for you and me to journey inward together.

What is my body asking for right now—and how can I give it without guilt?

What emotion am I resisting that actually just needs to be felt?

What emotion or memory have I been storing that is ready to be released?

What kind of support does my nervous system desire today?

What would it feel like to trust the process of not knowing?

How can I soften, even when things feel sharp?

How can I support my nervous system today?

If you are feeling tender, tired, emotional or on the verge of something beautiful but unknown…

I invite you to take a moment.

Place one hand on your heart and the other on your belly. Close down your eyes if it is safe and comfortable for you to do so.

Inhale gently.

Exhale even slower.

Again.

Exhale even slower this time.

One more time.

You are not behind.

You are not broken.

You are not too much.

You are not alone.

You are exactly where you need to be to feel what you need to feel.

Let this be your midweek check-in.

Let this be your permission to pause.

Let this be your invitation back to yourself.

Written with a strong spine aligned, emotions welcome, heart wide open and a curious mind

Hannah